Remember

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Today is September 16, 2007.

Six years ago, someone showed up who changed who I am. He saw the good in me and never asked for any more than who I was. As I changed and grew and learned, he changed and grew and learned right alongside me.

He told me I was beautiful and I knew he meant it.

But I saw him, and I saw problem after problem after problem. I should have seen opportunity - opportunity to understand someone else.

Why doesn't he want anyone to know about us? Maybe he's afraid - afraid of how others might react, afraid of how his life might forever change, afraid of what would happen if things don't work out.

Why doesn't he call? Maybe he wants to keep his distance, to not be so overbearing, to allow others into his life.

Why does he make me so sad? Maybe he doesn't even know. Maybe he doesn't see things the same way I do. Maybe it's something we should talk about.

You can't change someone else into who you want them to be. All you can do is figure out the best way to make him or her fit into your life. We must look past all the "impossibilities", all the reasons why things can't work. And if we really want to make them work, we must try to understand ourselves and understand that other soul.

We have two choices in life: darkness or light. I fear things could have been better six years ago if I had chosen to focus on the light. Life is always full of problems and obstacles and uncertainties. It is not whether darkness exists - it always does. It is how we deal with that darkness that defines our life.

Things might have been different if I had seen more of the good - I surely would if I could do it all over again.

But then again, I'm just a silly goose.