Panic

Monday, October 29, 2007

january 11, 2007
the night before
i didn’t sleep
drank coffee
to keep me going

four classes
big lecture
what’s my name
i know you
golf

then i drove around
like every day
after class
after dinner
before bed
that stuff
medicine
fantastic
can make you forget

arby’s
i just wanted a roast beef sandwich
and jalapeno poppers
four cars ahead
i panicked

u turn
this is the longest light ever
driving
where is the road
home
i called 911

where are they
we’ll send the fire trucks first
where are they
on the way

i thought i was dying
i love you all
i wrote
i meant it
in a way
i was ready to die

here we are
they looked at me
disappointed
angry
i think i had a panic attack
i said

i thanked them
when they left
can i have your card
i wanted to send a thank you note
she gave me her card
a drug help line
i didn’t need help
finally i was free

if something is going to change
something bad will have to happen
and it did
like god himself
or herself
wanted to intervene

now you know
that i love you
i want to be with you forever
hello
sudden
unexpected
but perfect

then it ends
that’s not what i really wanted
you are forced
to find yourself

robbie
is my name
here you are
it’s not as bad as you think
you can do it

hard to say goodbye
but i did
you are nothing
but a memory

you made a mistake
let’s try that again
you made a mistake
too late
on we go

veronica mars
season one
i was high
a mystery i couldn’t solve
perhaps i could have
under more favorable conditions

veronica mars
season two
i had a few drinks
back from france
alone
finally
on the couch
in my robe
how nice it is
to be alone

veronica mars
season three
just me
at home with john
i love this show
why was it canceled
i don’t know

a long time ago
we used to be friends
but i haven’t thought of you lately
at all
come on now sugar
bring it on
bring it on
yeah
just remember me when

thank you nate
for a fantastic time
and your patience
and your understanding
and your support
you get it
and so do i

west on heroes
i hope he comes back
and i hope you do too

tomorrow
bacon lettuce tomato
a double
with cheese
i’ll take it

halloween
this week
i don’t have a costume
except for a parrot hat

corona
on sale at harris teeter
$10.99
i’ll have one
or eleven

don’t worry
the best is yet to come
and you
made a huge mistake
too bad
on we go

peace out