Two

it's like there are two robbies
always battling each other
one real, one fake
one nice, one mean
one inspired, one depressed

life of ryan
strangely entertaining to me
on so many levels
i wish i could go back
and be 17
a professional skateboarder
i am so emo
and broken
deep down

there's an x-files episode
clyde bruckman's final repose
oh sometimes it
just seems that everyone's having sex
except for me
everyone is paired off
except for me

but that's your choice
he says
hinting
encouraging
no
i'm not ready
it's not time
do you know
how screwed up i am

yum yum
you could have it for dessert
or
alternatively
you could drink it
choice a
choice b
hmmm

i never thought it would come to this
well actually
it always comes to this
i block myself
from what could be
from who could be
because it's not quite perfect
could be better
yeah
like i can judge perfection

i tried
but
for me
it's not gonna work
six months
i'll be gone
why bother
when the future
is all but inevitable

john mayer
on perez hilton
the hottest thing
i have ever seen
in my entire life

i like tv
you see
because it's not real
it's not my life
and i can pretend
that i am somewhere better
one day
i will make a really fucking great tv show
three scripts
done
i probably need a lawyer

stop obsessing
over things you can't control
he said
to himself
as if to convince
himself
that things
are not in his control
they are...
however

this is
your life
live it

one plus one
makes two
but two
is not
always better than one